darling's birthday

11th birthday for Darling today 5th of July.

Darling has been a great friend, sister and an even great joy to me. As she begins to mature from a small child to the now pimple breaking adolescence, I couldn’t help but be amazed in the difference in her since I first met her when she was 5.

Then she was still a tiny small fellow, who dirtied her clothes where ever she goes. Rachel and I would bring her to the gym and she would run around so much that she vomited and had to wear my full of sweat t-shirt home cause we got to throw her soil t-shirt, we would bring her to the science centre and she would seat on some 'just painted' chairs at the bus stop and stain her nice skirt ,so in the end when we brought her to ssentosa one time, she brought 2 sets of extras for just in case....She was also a very protective sister at that time because whenever Rachel and held hands she would always try to come in between to separate us.

Then there was the few years ago when I just start coaching her in her studies, I did not have much experience and I only knew biblical principles but still that was still better then seeing her being beat up and heavily penalised just because of her studies. I spent great effort convincing the parents, finding time to teach her, spending time with her, disciplining her and eventually trying very hard to motivate her. Those were the time where our relationship was strained because I was either too fierce or too demanding. I did not care about her academics but I focus entirely on her moral and character because I believe these are the real assets that will help her succeed in life.

It showed clearly in the Choir coca where she was proactively involved and she surprised every one in the family when she was selected to perform and competes in KL. Although it was a school effort but according to the teacher, she played a major role in the choir and was very encouraged to go.

For a few years, she did not improve much in her studies and I had problem justifying my efforts to the parents. But this year when she started going to the serangoon tuition by a former catholic high teacher and things took a great turn. She became very motivated and disciplined. She wakes up on time and infect early to go for tuition, she did her homework in time and in advance until the teacher have not enough worksheets for her, she stick to her tuition arrangement although it was youth day and she proactively collected tuition fees from her mum without even me probing.
My efforts paid off! My focus in her character building took off and she is becoming a responsible and child with a determination to succeed.

In the entire process, we have grown so close to each other, she is always willing to offer her service to me, she would take things for me , bring me ice water, help me buy food or help me with some chores …

All in all, in this few years, as much as I have seen her growth she is also a witness to the growth of my relationship with Rachel, in our court ship she was there, when we held hands she was there, when we quarrel she was there when romance she was there(some how).

Darling, thank you for always doing thing for me, always sharing jokes with me and always helping me when jie jie is angry with me … Happy 11th birthday.

we've got some things confirmed yesterday...

8th of October, that will most be the date of our R.O.M
Finally after so much time spent discussing about the details, we have decided pretty much to do it at a later time so as to allow us more time to yet discuss the procedures and the wants and needs for the ROM.

THURSDAY... 1 more to go and it will be weekend.
I am anticpating the weekend cos it will be beer and soccer.

Germany vs Argentina ... thats world cup in advance isnt it whoever win will win anyway

England vs Portrugal ... Now the deal is thats the only game rachel is interested in, its a cosmetic team with all the pretty face. But England will win based on critics quoting that ports haas too many red card last game..

Italy vs Ukakraine ... only one comment for this gam ... boring... neither will win the world cup.

Brazil vs France ... this is ah fat vs lao ah peh game.. but brazil is at any time worth watching.. but i ronaldo + zidane does llok like alien imports though...

Predicted 4 strong ... Argentina, England, Brazil, Italy.

Marriage is sure mean feat...

All thie time and effort going into a single event of your life.

I have been doing so much lately...
First the house
Then the renovation
Then the dinner
Then the R.O.M
Then the Bridal Shop shopping
Then the family wayang

I am breathless...

I have decided now to spend less time blogging on my thoughts but rather find more time updating what has been done...

Met up at Corona yesterday to meet jie and I could see that when i spoke to Mum about the wedding. She started tearing.

I am sad, sad to see her so weak. But I hope i can bring her the last bit of assurance that at least 'Ah Chong' is now a upright young man with a stable job and a clear future ahead...

Dad has an accident with a taxi yesterday. Infact i spoke to him in the afternoon when he is in the hospital. but he just refuse to tell me what happened until my kor called me in the evening. Some times i think my father is such a fighter, he is always getting into problem but he has always got out of problems, on the other hand... and the food reflexlogy thing, even jie seems supportive cos they are going to get him a bubble bath for the foot.

Finally, my cell members, my sheep, i am so sorry i have been so busy lately... I figure i will be more free from next week and i will definitely catch up with you guys.Forgive me for the constraint, thanks.

Financial Freedom...

Thats a big word to me. I dont really like this word... not because it is too tough a challenge but because it is too far from me.

I bought i flat last week and Oh. My. the expenses are so great! And the money that surmounted from my pass debts have proved to become a major stumble when i start to really think that i can i fly.

Just as i thought i could walk, i could infact only crawl.

Glen's birthday

Till death do us part

Have been really busy and super tied up for the last 2 weeks.But busy does not always equates to negativity, nor does it implies that being busy we cannot enjoy the hectic process.

I have infact enjoyed every part of being busy for the last 2 weeks.

After the camp, I have been convicted or I have resoluted to bring our relationship (with Rachel) to the next level of court ship and that is to get engaged , to begin building a family cluster and actually, to start shifting the focus of our relationship from "Me" to "you" to "US".

Stage 1 - ME
Most of the time, a love relationship- BGR in this case develops when 2 persons with a need (usually emotional) find a match in each other.The focus is usually on 'I', the first particpant and these needs are most of time general and less demanding , ie. Appearance preference, income, family, race. Because of the lack of details in this round of choice, most relation would not last beyong this stage.

Stage 2 - YOU
By the time the relatonship comes to this stage the honey moon period is usually over and the particpants would have seen the flaws and as matter of fact accepted the flaws of their partners. The main difference bewteen this stage and the previous lies in the focus, where it is emphazsized on the 2nd particiapant , I would say this most likely equates to sacrificial love. Either one of the party may contribute more but the gees lies in that It really doesnt matter I receive how much but more of I give how much.

Stage 3 - US
This is the time where both party have receive enough and given enough and is ready to take the courtship to life parthnership, the expiry of this partnership? Till death do us part. This would be the final stage before the introduction of small little rascals call babies, but this I would think would be the most enjoyable stage. From buying a flat , to prepartion of marriage , till sharing the loads of house chores, till preparing breakfast for each other. That is Marriage I guess.


I think too much of a time we are exposed to the external media which promotes indiviualism thus marriage or court ship suddenly seems to be too pathethic and on the contrary causal relationship, one night stands or no strings attached lovers seems to be seamlessly no frill .But what is enjoyment without expereince, what is gain with out a process or what is vistory without a fight?

Tune to channel 8 or channel U and most of the time you will find the plot will show couples in pain over spiled relationship. Are they really that bitter? IS it really nothing in a relation ship that is worth the effort to commit and by loyal to a single person?Maybe the ups may be lesser then the downs, but isn't that life anyway.

I lived for a long time thinking that marriage is a predestined failure and was cetain in my younger days that marriage is a passe . But I am certainly glad now that I could break off from that paradigm and move on with life. IN fact, towards a marriage life.

ignite camp 2006

I would like to thank God for the ignite camp 2006 for in this camp, I had a personal touch from God, infact God give me assurance and comfort in the Camp.

I went to the camp last week with a single objective and that was to get closer or intimate with God! I thought that a good 4 days 3 night within the pure indulgence of the Holy Spirit would offer me a good start to the second part of the year.

And yes indeed, God gave me some thing, some thing special and some thing powerful on the 2nd night of the Camp. During the alter call when the pastor wong came to pray for me , I had no agenda nor did I have any thing in mind to ask God for , but when the spirit of the Lord came over me, I felt immense pleasure and I could not comprehend the feeling … tears gushed out from my eyes and I fell to the spirit of God. When I was in the arms or the Spirit, I began to see visions, pictures of the youths in the cell group and how God want to expand in their life.

To me , that is approval from God. That is a signal of love from Him, a signal that He is very alive in our service to him and that He is very alive in our walk with Him.

The camp has finaly arrived after so long!

OOO

At 10:56am yesterday morning i sent peter a SMS , "You will receive the job today"

That was the clear instruction that i felt God had through me wanted to convey to peter yesterday. I cant explain how it happened, I was busy attending to user requests in my office and then out of the blue, I hear some one talking to me... "He will receive the job today" and i sent the SMS.

We have been praying hard for this for a long time, for our career, for our finanical break through for our success in the secular arena.

Then early this month came my break when i was offered my current position with Barclays, but we still not hear anything for peter and we continued to pray.

Yesterday, Our prayer was answered. Peter was offered a job with Smith & Nephew as a Sales Exec in the pharmaceutical field. Some thing that suit him and most of all some thing relevant and prestigious in his line. He was offered a high basic and transport allowance, with good comission too.

To me, that is the power of agreement. We agreed at the begining of this year that we will see ourselves a norch higher, that we will believe we will gain a higher success, that we strive to be the head and not the tail and we submit our plans to God... though we encountered set backs half way we did not gave up and now, compared to our peers we are more than a norch higher, we got a higher sucess and we became the head in our career among our peers.

Why power of agreement? because we shared the vision together, we believe in each other's ability to be able to achieve what we asked for, we asked God to be involve in our vision and now we give thanks for what God say given.

Interdependency ... thats whay Steven Covey call it
interdependency ... thats what Peter thought we have acheived

Am I arrogrant to publicly declare that we are better then the rest? Yes i am , but I am only arrograntly proclaiming the testimony of God in our lifes because i am totally convince that without supernatural intervention from Him, i would probably still be a pathetectic underpaid worker for NCS.







This is where i heard the voice:

Ladies and gentlemen...

Presenting to you.. HP HW6828





Got a call on saturday morning from my bro telling me that there is an exchange program by HP in sim lim sq / funan that allows exchange of my Dopod 818 for Hw 6828 for FREE ... or a matter of $99 in my case.

I immediately flew down to SIM LIM...

The Hw6828 is infact O2 atom as they were manufractured by the same company (Quamtar) but HP packed in a better camera and mp3 player thus made the difference... but most of all, the after sales from Hp will prove more reliable.

I would like to thank my Bro Philip who informed me first thing in the morning about the offer.

Friday!!!!!

Saturday!!!!!

Sunday!!!!!

Haha, its weekend again... time to complete my research, clear off anything outstanding from first half of the year.

Time flies .. apparently much faster as you grow older...

I thought we were still hving fun , hola hola in the christmas party not long ago and then now we are suddenly going into the remaining month of the 2Q year.

I thought i fought a good victory over Zzzzzzz Monster this week. Getting up everyday at 4 to work is really no mean feat... BUT TGIF ... simlpy love it..

Alot of stuffs are coming up this week,
1.) Prepare for offering challenge
2.) Prepare for Camp
3.) House viewing
4.) Sunday hi tea with family
5.) I need a new camera, got to go for some window shopping to look for a useful one.
6.) I need to find a sponsor for number 5,
7.) I need to get rachel to pay attention to number 6.
8.) laundry
9.) I need to do journey guide.. its dso overdue... with some of the CG members
10.) I need to excercise..

haiz, I wan to blog more but there is so limited time... but i will be back next week with nice new photos... if i managed to buy a camera.

Vision

I had a vision from God

That the church will grow to 5000 members in 10 years

Hallelujah

how far would you go to take responsiblity of your mistake

Attended a wedding dinner last sat of a couple neither me nor Rachel knows of, but we were there just to fulfill some family obligations.

The bridegroom was 23 and the bride 21 ...

I am not sure about you, but most pple including myself would come to a quick conclusion before we would find out anything else about the weds..

wah... confirm shot gun...

That comes the almost immediately reply that I would give almost 99.999% of the time.

But as I sat at the table among the self justified to be righteous pple, I had a chance to re evaluate my paradigm of shot gun marriage.

Most pple would argue that s/g marriage is by itself a marriage borne out of mistake and anything with a bad starts leads to a bad end, that it is a publication of diagrace that should not be celebrated and infact shouldnt have happened, that a couple without proper moral standards cannot outlive the strenous requirements of a healthy marriage or marriage decisions forced by pregnancy does not beat marriage decision that is properly considered by the couple,advised by the parents and consulted by a judging panel of relatives who probably determines the feasability of the marriage based on the income of the couple.

Now all the above mentioned can be right, but we often forgot these are mere asumptions of the standards of a marriage. And putting these standards of marriage aside, do we still remember the basic reason/concept behind the existance of a marriage?

a simple search of "what is marriage" on google.com produces the following definition, "the state of being voluntarily joined for life"

Thats that, period

When 2 couple make a serious decision to unite and live their lifes together till death does them part.

So if at any considerson, the couple involves ..whether they are old, young, rich or poor.. is commited to being united with each other till death, they qualify totally for mariage.. whether they have sex b4 or after marriage only determines the quality of the marriage but NOT the marriage.

Who says pregnant woman and a young man can not make a serious commitment to a marriage?

A love Relationship is a decision, anyone firm with this decision qualify for marriage.

That being said, the problem most people have with a shot gun marriage is infact not the marriage it self, but the 'gun shot'.

And in my opinion, thats pathetic...

Whats wrong with mistakes, how many of us could really stand up and be responsible for our mistakes? There is practically nothing wrong with stumbling or falling as long as you can be responsible of your failure.

Imagine, if the couple would be any time less responsible .. then we probably would have 1 more abortion? 1 more broken family? 1 more youth at risk?

And infact, we should appluade this couple .. not for the mistake, not for the marriage ... but for the courage they have to live the best out of their situation.

And we should dedicate a Kallang wave to the parents, who are not only forgiving to their children but are yet supportive and loving to them.



P.s : This blog is in no attempt to glorify shot gun marriage or premarital sex.

The fear of your life

Cell group ended on a high note yesterday, pau.dawn.pete + me initially wanted to go Coffee Embassy after CG but was stalled on the way back by a major accident at the junction of the AMK AVE 1. But that was also good , as we then had fellowship in the car chatting about a sucidal case pete encountered yesterday. Some one in his hospital apparently jump off the 5 storey building and then pete was the first to reach the patient and performed resucitation on him.

As we discuss about the inicdent, i couldn't help but to think about the topic peter shared in cell group top day, which was about The fear of the lord (II).

a) It puts way pride and arrogrance
b) It puts away evil intention
c) It encourages speech of love

The above are the significants pointers discussed, but what caught me was simply the mere fact that whatever being the fear of your life will equates or turn out to be your god.

If you fear of losing money, you may end up sacrificing your fellowship/church/ministry time to earn more

If you fear of failing your exams, you may end up sacrificing your fellowship/church/ministry time to study more

But if you fear God, you may end up spending more fellowship/church/ministry time, which is good.

What then is the fear of my life? it used to by money issue, it used to be social status, it used to be enjoyment. But all this i realised was taken care of when i started to fear God in stead. I love you Jesus.

Why did the chicken cross the road?

Often in life , we tend to see to many variations and maniuplative reasoning towards a single decision that in the end we lost the simple , ardent truth or motive behind the decision..

why did the chicken cross the road?
To get to the other side of the road.

that's that ... period.

In my younger days, I always stick by the simple principle of trust.

"I would rather to err in over trusting then to under trust a person."

But now, it seems harder as i begin to realise and see the tendencies in man to fail. I wouldn't like to feel trash up so often, but i think i have been trashed up all the time in this area. So much that i now have became a spectaculation machine, always deducing a person worth and always judging a person behaviour.

are we what we want

It a new week and also new start in my life... weeks have pass that i have not comtributed much in the build of my wealth. But now here I am in the middle of a smoothing night within the CBD zone ... working.

As i am only beginning to get a taste of high life, i found my self hard to justify the cost of such standards... but while i am still trap in this prestige entanglement.. i found that there is still much to learn within the cold spectrum of performance driven sector.Thats life, you work hard but you do not definitely assume a comfortable return, but you take some risk ... who knows you may just get it...

The new social element of sucess now = diligent work + a high risk profile.

How true is that.. in HP i work hard... but i was back stabbed, kick out and left to die... but now in Barclays, took a risk ,got good return... but do i still have to work hard.. yes..

My point... The society has turn cruel . in the 70s and 80s just working hard bring you some where.. then in the 90s the buzz word was 'working smart'... welcome to the late 2000... and then we have evolved to an era where so much more is now expected. But can we let go, can we release ourselves from the chase of being a social elite , an achiever in our work, marriage, studies, church or family? ... it does seems like we can only continue to helplessly play by the rules of this game and then hope that we are in the game that we want to be in...

on a separate note

When was the last time you praise someone? when was the last time you listen to someone instead of imposing your idea on some one? when the was the last time you sit down and ask yourself.. is the most important thing in my life really important?

like freda, I watch i not stupid too(2) over the weekend and i was touched they set me thinking about the questions above and i thought i have been renewed for a while . Please go and watch the show if you can... no point for me to blog about this cos the movie tells it all. Ps. i have the DVD so shout out if you wanna borrow from me.

Its been a great day for me..
Exploring my seat , my new job and my new collegues...

I feel excutive... and i love it....

Its true when we built God's house , built ours... i tithe fervently and God keeps his promise of abundance...

Anyway... had a good time planning for the camp with the Ignite planning commmitteee...


I wanna go on blogging but i am very tired...

Got to wake up aT in 3 hours time...

But i will make it...

HebRews 1:14 But angels are only servants. They are spirits sent from God to care for those who will receive salvation.

Its funny how most girls like to be refered to as angels , now we no though the bibke that , the fact that us being seen as an angel is degrading to our identity in Christ..Cos God make us in his own image!

Thats important to know, Like pastor said last week... Our Subconcious determines what our future is like because if you dont see it you will not have it.

Now i am so gald in the middle of the night spelling out my new position in Barclays tomrrow. But i am here today because of only of one reason. I saw that I will be a sucessful person in my career, family and ministry.. though still working hard at it but the first step have begun...

To be continued....

Man or Mehhhhhhhh

Its been really fun and interesting over the last two weeks..

In the midst of my job search, i turned to temporary full time of the church and WOW... its not easy man, just like how a pastor i met on friday put it... A sherperds role is never for the faint hearted... now i raise all limbs in awe to say AMEN.

I love Jesus, I love God

Why did i quote the above, because I loved too... As I wrote the above, all the activites of the past 2 weeks came into my life and I felt a gush of feeling let out of me.. I guess thats joy and i thank God, cause in Him my joy was completed. Heard alot of that in the bible but i am grateful to experience it..

So whats next ,

I have been offer a role with Barclays Capital , Though extremely high paying but the most positive aspect of the position is that I will get to learn alot and of course i will have a chance to work with traders... couldnt wait..

But in the mean time, i will have one more day tomorrow to round up my ministry work... I hope i will can 'preserve' the feeling of being complete as long as possible.

I originally wanted to blog about the wait of MAN... but too tired liao... Its freaking 2am...

I am back

After a long break, I am back to blogging!

I was lazy, to redo a blog so i attempt to delete all the "Expicit post" that I had put up. In the end, I spent more time to remove than to make a new one.. but noe the less it was worth while going thru my previous blogs..

PS. Expicit = not for mature audience..

Thoughts for the day!
This uncle is so cute right...